Every year it seems I fall into a pattern with my writing here on this blog. About this time of year, the end of summer and beginning of fall, I start to write more. This will last through the fall and winter. Once the new year kicks in, I slowly start slowing down and usually around spring, I stop with only an occasional post throughout the spring and summer and then it all starts over again in August/September.
Why is that? I’ve thought about this for years actually as I’ve noticed this pattern in many areas of my spiritual life. With my kids playing baseball and with me coaching the sport, my spring and summer are typically pretty busy and the busyness of life gets in my way. I find my quiet time, my prayer time starts to wane. We often forgo church because of games or just a general weariness and wanting to spend the day resting.
This is not something I’m proud of and it’s something I try and repent of and get better at. But something I realize is that every fall when I begin to come around, God is right there. I realize in that moment that actually God was never gone. The entire time that I’m walking my own way, God is pursuing me. So much so, that once I turn around and start to look for God again in my life, he is already there. In fact, he has never left me.
Look at the story of the prodigal son. The son, left the father and went his own way. When he eventually comes around and realizes his mistakes and makes his journey back home, we get this verse;
So he got up and went to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.Luke 15:20
When the son was returning home and was still a longs ways off. His father saw him. See the father was watching for him, pursuing him and hoping for his return. If he hadn’t loved his son and awaiting his return, he wouldn’t have been watching for him and see him as he was returning.
God watches for us and his always there when we turn around and cry out to him. He is always there.
I revealed myself to those who did not ask for me;
I was found by those who did not seek me.
To a nation that did not call on my name,
I said, ‘Here am I, here am I.’
All day long I have held out my handsIsaiah 65:1-2
to an obstinate people,
who walk in ways not good,
pursuing their own imaginations
God loves us so much, he feels we are so valuable and so precious, that he never gives up on us. He always follows after us saying “Here am I.”