Last night I attended a fundraiser for our local high school football team. For years, I had been heavily involved and served on board of the non-profit that supports this group. I stepped down a year ago to allow me time to do other things I felt God was calling me too. Last night, my wife and I went to enjoy the evening and to help as we could.
I had a quite a few people come up to me last night and say one of two things. Some asked me a question as if I was still on the board and then when I told them I wasn’t anymore was surprised. Others were surprised I was there and helping out.
One in particular, was surprised I was there as she knew I had stepped down and had remembered my reasoning, as I had spoken about it in public as well as written here that I felt God was calling me elsewhere. She has been following this blog and was excited to see where God had led me and my wife and that she felt we were meant for big things.
I had a pleasant conversation with her and then we went about our business. However, the conversation stuck with me all night and I woke up this morning thinking about it. I had told her that while I had felt God had called me away from what I was currently doing, he hadn’t led me to the “next” thing yet. I feel that God is preparing me for the next part of my journey as he has been moving pieces in place over the last couple years, but He hasn’t told me where I’m “going” yet. I’m not sure what he is preparing me for.
My impatience screams, “I want to know now, before I begin the journey.” My practicality and knowledge of how God has moved in my life before tells me, “Just sit back and wait…It’s going to be awesome.”
Where God is leading me? I have no clue. Is it going to something big? I’m sure it will be, everything God does is “big,” even when it’s small in our eyes. I’m still waiting and praying and watching. I’m struggling with somethings, but in the long run, they will make me stronger and more useful to Him.
This time of preparation can be an anxious time, but as I told my friend last night when she asked me where God was taking me, because she felt we were meant for something big. I replied to her, “I don’t know where He’s leading me yet and that can be scary at times, because I’m comfortable. I’m comfortable in my life right now and I’m afraid He’ll ask me to change too drastically. However, wherever it is that I’m going, I know I’ll look back and say, that was awesome. And even if I think that I can’t do it, God will get me through.”
This verse from 1 Peter came up in my reading this morning and I felt it was appropriate for my discussion with her.
Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ.
-1 Peter 4:10-11
So why did I go back and help out last night? Because God gave my wife and I the strength and the gift to serve, so that’s what we did in hopes that we are praising God through our service.